Hello again!
Something exciting happened on Sunday – I bought my first car! I’ve been saving up for one for months, and I’m so happy that I’ve managed to save up enough to buy myself a decent car. All I need to do now is pass my test, which is within the next couple of months; fingers crossed that I pass first time!
Last Thursday marked my last proper day at college; I only have to go in for three exams and then I’m OUT. It feels absolutely mad knowing that college is over now, it only feels like yesterday that I started! Oh boy, that time has flown by.
I’ve been thinking about these past two years of college a lot recently. Two years is quite a long time, but it’s gone so quick and I’ve experienced a lot. I’ve been reflecting on it quite a bit, so I thought I’d share my experience of college on here, since that’s what I seem to do these days.
I’m going to split it into different sections, because if I don’t I feel like I could go on for DAYS about these past two years – once I start writing I can’t stop.
BEFORE
I left school back in June 2015 and was due to start college that September. My last couple of years at school were quite tough (which is something I’ll talk more about in a post I have planned for a few weeks time) so for me, college was a fresh start. In fact, at the time of me starting college I moved house, from my hometown, Lewes, of 16 years to living by the sea on outskirts of Seaford, so alongside starting college it felt like the beginning of a new chapter in my life.
Originally I wanted to do Biology, English Lang & Lit, and Photography, however after an open day I decided that I wasn’t clever enough to do Biology and I didn’t really like the idea of studying Literature anymore. Instead, I decided to take English Language A Level, Media Studies AS/A2, and Photography A Level. Two subjects were ones I wasn’t experienced in – I liked photography as a hobby so I decided to take it as a subject to broaden my knowledge on it, and Media Studies was a completely new subject to me but I had heard good things about it, so I threw myself into that one to try something new. English Language was a no brainer for me though; I’ve loved creative writing for as long as I can remember and English was my favourite subject in school, so I just had to do it at A Level.
SUBJECTS
Hmm, where do I start – with the good, or the bad? I’ll go with bad, just to get it out the way.
So, Photography. First year Photography was good. I enjoyed learning different techniques; how to use a camera, what different lenses did and how to develop images in a dark room. To begin with it just felt like I was doing my hobby inside of college, which I was totally okay with. I quite enjoyed it – since there wasn’t a proper exam at the end of year 1, it was quite chilled.
Then second year happened. That hit me like a ton of bricks.
Photography went from being so chilled to being the polar opposite. The thing I didn’t like was how your work had to resemble another photographer’s, and how each image had to have a deep meaning behind it. Like, whenever I’ve taken a photo I’ve taken it because I think it’d make a lovely photo, not because there’s some deep meaning behind it. One time I walked out of class because I didn’t find the work that was set beneficial – I’m really not a model Photography A Level student, I’m afraid! But that’s a story for another day. I put so much time and effort into that subject, and it felt like no matter what I did it was never enough, which is debilitating. So, overall, that A Level was pretty awful, although it hasn’t stopped my love for photography as a hobby.
English Language was pretty dull in first year. It was mainly learning about different word classes and the connotations drawn from particular lexis and all that. When we were doing Language and Technology, our class had to try and explain what a meme was to my teacher, which was quite funny. I loved my first year class, we all got on so well and we always had a laugh!
Second year was better than first year when it came to lesson content. There was more opportunities to do creative writing, which is the reason why I took the subject in the first place. With one teacher we did Child Language Acquisition, which was interesting but also really, really boring. With my other teacher we did a wider variety of topics, which I mainly enjoyed. On the whole I enjoyed the subject, but I just wish there were more opportunities to do more creative writing!
Media Studies is my favourite. My first year teacher made the subject really enjoyable. He was the kind of person that you had instant respect for. He told you how it was. If you talked in class, he’d tell you to ‘piss off.’ He addressed us as ‘f*ckers’ at times, and I thought it was hilarious. I think he’s the reason why I enjoy Media so much and that I seem to be half decent at it. In my AS exam I got 99 marks out of 100, which is my proudest achievement to date!
We were told that second year would be easier. Ha, funny one. It was so much harder. Since September, we’ve had to learn about three different industries, memorise nine case studies, apply a number of theories to these chosen industries and learn a shit load of terminology. It’s been time consuming to say the least. And now I’m going to University to carry this subject on. What was I thinking?!
Nah, in all seriousness, I really enjoy Media Studies and I’m excited to take it further at uni… if I get the grades I need, that is…
FRIENDS
Without my friends, I think college wouldn’t have been as good as it has been. I’ve made a whole new group of friends over the past two years, and I’m so happy that I’ve had the fortune of meeting this lovely bunch.
In first year I used to spend the gap between my second and third lesson with my friend, Thea, in the Performing Arts common room. I’ve been friends with Thea since Year 7, and it’s down to her that I’ve made two of my closest friends, Callum and Billie. I used to absolutely LOVE Tuesdays, even though it meant a 9-5 day at college. I got to spend time with my favourite people, and I can definitely say that I really missed those Tuesdays in second year.
Starting college also meant that I was reunited with my friend of 14 years, Chelsea. I met Chelsea in Nursery back in 2003 (I think?) – I was crying under a table – as you do -, and Chelsea found me. I also met my friend, Jane, the same way too. I used to cry a lot in nursery because they’d call me Harriet instead of Hattie – I’ve been petty from a young age. Chelsea and I went to primary school together, then when we went to different secondary schools so we didn’t get to see each other a lot. But when we were reunited at college it was like we’d never been apart. We’ve had such a laugh together, and she got me through Photography A Level – without her I probably would have gone mad!
Over the past two years I’ve also grown really close to my best friend, Rowan. I met Rowan in year 7 – we instantly became friends and we’ve been inseparable ever since. Rowan and I are so similar it’s spooky. We basically match in every way possible, even the amount of Instagram followers we have are the same! We have to message each other before we go anywhere together to see what the other one of us is wearing in case we wear the same outfit – trust me, it’s happened more than once. She’s the one friend that I can always rely on, the one friend that I know will always be there and the one friend that I could trust with anything. I just love her so much. Damn.
There are more friends too – my T R I G G E R E D gals (we need another Galentines soon), my Media pals – that I’m so glad I’ve met. They really brighten up the dullest of lessons. I’m definitely going to dedicate a whole post to my friends in the near future, because they deserve more than a brief paragraph.
I’m gonna include my experience with boys in this section too, because, lets be honest, they never made it past the friendship stage. My experience with boys has been disastrous, I shit you not. I’ve been dumped after 23 hours and I’ve been left on read 8:10am, and the worst thing is that I STILL DON’T KNOW WHY both of these things happened. But one thing I do know is that I cannot be bothered with boys anymore, much to my parents’ delight. Bye huns, thanks for wasting my time xox (I’m most definitely not bitter).
COLLEGE AS A WHOLE
I’d say college was decent, overall. I liked going there, and I felt that my time there was valuable. The food selection was bangin’ – the hash browns were not to be messed with. Although, £1.35 for a bar of flapjack is quite steep. I think a few things were a bit ridiculous, for example the whole lanyard situation. Once, my friend got told that her wearing a lanyard was more important than her attending her lesson, which was just a stupid debate to begin, to be honest. Also, one teacher told us we weren’t allowed to wear coats in class; towards the end they started to treat us a bit like school kids. I also had quite a bad experience with sending off my UCAS application because I didn’t have a tutor, as my original tutor decided she didn’t want us anymore, so I didn’t have anyone to write my reference. Apart from that, though, college was alright.
I’d say that college was good for me. I feel that it’s made me more confident and independent, which helped with my anxiety a huge amount. Before college my confidence levels weren’t the highest and I thought I’d find it hard to make friends, but it was actually surprisingly easy. Mostly everyone at college was really friendly, and we all made the effort to get on with each other. During my time at college I’ve made friends, I’ve moved house, I’ve got a part-time job, I’ve been discharged from CAMHS, I’ve become a happier and healthier person, and I’ve got into the univeristy of my choice under a conditional offer. I couldn’t have wished for more than that, to be honest! On the whole it’s been a really positive experience, and I’m going to miss it.
That’s two years of college summed up in a blog post. There is so much more I could have written, but I think I would have been sat here for HOURS writing about it – I already spend a minimum of two hours writing a single post!
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I’ll be back again next week, as per.
Love, Hattie X